Several weeks have passed now since the passing of our little one. Actually a month has passed without Issac...it is hard to believe. Because it was only within a month that we discovered Issac was not well, attended the specialists, and experienced the letting go of our boy. Issac Ramsay Higgins is a truly, precious treasure. How can I say how hard it has been to experience pregnancy, only to have it cease in such a short time. It is often surreal, almost dreamlike in its brevity when I think about it....a whisper of a memory.
I know Issac is in the Lord's arms being rocked and loved by the greatest Caretaker of all! To be cradled, truly cradled as a baby in God's presence - that is my comfort, my joy, and honestly my sadness because I long to hold Issac once more, to see his form. I will never know his triumphs, his favorites, his sadness, his tears, his hugs and kisses...but, but, I hear his laughter. I do, and it is an amazing thing. God gave me Issac, whose name means "laughter," and that is the one thing I hear from Issac.
Blessings, strength, comfort and great love.... these are the words I would describe in our experience and trial. God is so faithful, and I have learned and faced growth and seen growth that I need in my life. So, I thank God for Issac and the little breath of his life. Were Issac here today, I would not hold the blessings I do now from what has happened. Was that God's plan? I think so. Growth, spiritual growth is what God desires so much with us! Oh, How He Love Us and wants the closest relationship He can have with us. "The Lord Gives and Takes away, Blessed be the name of the Lord."
